Religion

What is Religion? - Religion is a set of beliefs and practices agreed upon by a set of people. It seems that the aim of religious beliefs is to be the link between humanity and God.

What is Spirituality? Usually finding God within yourself or finding your connection to the divine. Can also be individually defined to mean finding inner peace or a connection with your inner self.

Do I believe in Religion? No. Why? I prefer to base my beliefs and practices on values which are in turn based on humanism, harmony and peace. 

Do I believe is Spirituality? Its not a belief system for me to "believe in". Its an individuals action to be self aware and everyone should absolutely do that.

Humanists...
Think for themselves about what’s right and wrong, based on reason and respect for others.
Find meaning, beauty, and joy in the one life we have, without the need for an afterlife.
Look to science instead of religion as the best way to discover and understand the world.
Believe empathy and compassion can make the world a better place for everyone

How do I feel about someone who believes in Religion? -  Long answer short, I am fine with it. The long answer is that I am more of a live and let live to the extent you arent forcing your views on me. Im not going to force my views on you either.If we can continue to live harmoniously irrespective of our beliefs then Im fine with it. the issue arises when someone feels the need to convince me that I must believe in religion and to have the opinion that religion does not define my beliefs and actions is wrong. When that happens i would not like it. Even then the problem would not be based on religion but would be based on a persons behavior unrelated to his religion. So even at that point I am still fine with their religion, just not their behavior.

Do I believe in God? - I am Agnostic. I have no opinion on his existence or lack of existence.I shy away from calling myself a full fledged atheist simply because I am limited by my knowledge. I cannot logically argue the non-existence of god .

Atrocities in the name of Religion
- terrorism
- some honor killings
- Beef ban
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To be continued

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I cant write. I wouldn't know where to begin.

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Tradition

People who are important to you wield a lot of power. Someone important asked me to make sure I write everyday and so even when I could be lazy and not, I still shall.



Traditions, that has been looming in the background all day for me. right from my mother and sisters argument over whether a Ganapati looks tacky or not on a wedding invite to my roommates mother asking me what caste I am in detail and what traditions we follow in weddings. I didn't have any details for her thankfully and my mom seems to have given up.

It all is just a question of tradition. Our parents are trying extremely hard to hold on to the traditions they have been taught and are trying even harder to pass it on to us. Alas! they taught us to be independent and think for ourselves and when we did, we discarded traditions.

What is the point of tradition? It is usually an action to symbolize an event or to bless a future event. But we modern day generation folks no longer believe that if you light a fire today your future will be sorted. Or if you wear certain accessories your life will be happy and joyful. Or if I put henna and it turns dark then that is a proof of my love. Oh no, we have learnt that our destinies our in our own hands. We will be only as happy as we choose to be. It no longer lies in the hand of god. It lies in our hands. God has power, but only to take it all away. We have the power to live on each day. Oh and the shade of henna depends on your skin quality and body heat! (Well I guess I do give out more heat when I am around him *evil grin*.)

God, that is a touchy subject. God goes beyond traditions. Traditions are easy to dismiss as archaic and irrelevant in today's day and age. But God, God isn't a tradition. God is a belief preceding traditions. God was first then actions were created as manifestations of god's blessing. These actions when repeated over time became tradition. So are we then dismissing God when we dismiss traditions?

No, while the argument flows, it doesn't make logical sense. We no longer believe that certain actions are the only means of obtaining God's blessings. We are moving slowly from the "in the name of God" era to "what is the benefit of this now".

The more I look around and see the convoluted version of God, traditions and beliefs, that are out there, the more I am glad I don't buy any of it.

Im just the silly one who believes in Karma, Peace and Harmony.

Whats on my mind?

Im going crazy.

That is the the simplest explanation that I can think of for the emotional turbulence inside my mind. The way I described it to someone was that my thoughts and feelings are like a messed up yarn ball and i keep pulling random strands out which keep getting stuck.

I figured I need to get back to writing. About everything Im doing. Spend 10 minutes every night just writing.

So what do I want to write about?

1. Love - needs no explanation
2. Religion - something im trying to explore
3. My future - the ever changing constant
4. 30 - what will happen to me in 9 months
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and whatever else I want.

There is always a plan in life. And my life never goes according to my plan. Either there are other things that come in the way or I'm just too damn lazy. How do those "do it all" people actually do it? How do they not want to just lie in bed and not use their brains? I want to do that all the time. Do absolutely nothing.

But having done nothing for a rather long time now Im guessing its time to clean up my act and be the grown up im supposed to be and get it together. Right.

Recently I have been seeing alot of people getting married. Its hitting close to home now  and it isnt limited to my facebook friends. I look at them and think, they have it sorted. I know in my head that it isnt true. Marriage and a partner doesnt mean your life is sorted. But somehow i hear these voices in my head that say "Get married and then do what you want". Mom get out of my head!

Have we been reared to believe that marriage is the end goal? Is that the solutions to all our problems? Cant find a job, dont worry, get married! Dont know what to do next, dont worry, get married. Dont know where or what you want to study, dont worry, first get married. this M word is like a looming axe over our heads. Waiting for the right moment to fall down and chop off our worries. All we have to do is find a decent boy aur shaadi kar lo, settle ho jao.

Boys. The bane of my existence. I dont hate them. I have a boyfriend and I love him to bits. But honestly, this being my 6th relationship , not counting the flings and "dont know what we are"(s) [i actually had to count to make sure I got the number right], I feel a bit jaded. Like this is it. If this doesnt work I give up on relationships. The only reason Im even trying to make this work is because the person on the other side is just plain wonderful. He isnt perfect. But he's kinda the "where have you been all my life" person for me. Note to life: Either this guy is the one or you arent getting a chance to screw with me anymore.

I sometimes wonder what would I do if I decided to never be in a relationship again? Honestly, go out, have fun, rack up a list of sexual partners and move from fling to fling.Not be emotionally screwed. Nope. Be emotionally stable and mentally sane and  never settle. People have names for it. But guess what people, your shit aint worth it.

I know people like that. Men mainly. Im not friends with them. But sometimes I wonder what happened to them to make them live life this way. Old and single. Naive little me once wondered if they never felt the need for companionship and blah blah blah. They probably just decided to screw the whole concept and chill.

I have 9 months. To give my life a clear direction. To say I am 30 and sorted. And my time starts...4 days ago.

Go.

Shiny New House

Clean out the dusty closet

Pack away the old sheets

Put away those old pictures

Of fond memories.

Laugh at all that once was

Because now its time to throw it off

So put up new curtains

Wash out the grime

Put out the new silverware

Its finally time.

Dust off those cobwebs

The spiders have died

Clean out the broken furniture

Make space for a new life.

This is where you will stay my love

I will keep it neat and clean

Not a stain left my love

Nothing can be seen.

I put out the new sheets, you see

Threw away the old

They were stained with too many tears, you see

Its time for them to go.

Notice the fine china on the mantle piece

Those are the things I love

Keep them safe my dear

Don’t let them collect dust.

This is your home now, my love

Dont let it fall apart

I'l come everyday, my dear

I will do my part

Together we will build a life here

Together we will keep it strong

And when my heart stops beating dear

It will still be standing tall.

For the first time

There was a time you could have had everything

The love, the heart, the promises, the ring

But now it’s all gone, You took it all

And threw it down. Stepped on it,

like it was just another part of the ground

And what was left got washed away

The rains came took it all away.

You showed me castles in the air

Told me that you’d always be there

I left you once but you still held on

And then I came back, but you were gone

And you took it all away

Threw it all away, again.

I have nothing more to give,

My heart, my love, my promises are all broken

There is only the mess inside my head

And that isn’t a pretty sight anymore

Would you take it all, again?

There’s nothing left at all, yet again.

Call me a fool, call me a lover

I will come out of it

This time stronger

And you can’t have it all, again

You lost it all, again

This time it’s mine and not yours

Not again.

Memories of you will stay at the back of my mind

Soon they will be sad lullaby’s

And I will smile again, I will forget everything.

The footprints that you left behind

Will always be there, atleast for some time

It’l all wash away, all of you will go away

And I will be whole again

For the very first time.

Disconnect

One day I want to disappear. Just drop everything, switch of my phone, get off the internet, pack my bags and leave. Disappear for a bit. I wish I could do that now. Because I don’t think I can handle life any more. Just disconnect from everyone for a month.

In that one month I was to experience things I have never felt. Absolute isolation. Complete self reliance. Life the way is meant to be. Un-dependant. Free.

In the end, those who stay remain. Those who don’t. Well I wont need them anymore.

Maybe one day I will.