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You know you have reached a new all time low when telling the truth doesnt make you feel happier and lighter...because suddenly you realize your conscience is morally skewed thanks to all the lies I have told in my life and gotten away with. However, Im going more on the fact that there wasnt much to lie about in the first place so the truth i told were rather insignificant.Odd...admitting this does make me feel a bit lighter...

I kept away after the break up....not a word...but i have chosen a particular date having significant importance and on that date i am going to send a letter to someone...stating all that I have achieved in my time alone...mainly to prov to me that when I said i needed time to figure 'me' out I actually needed the time and I actually made progress. I dont want the hardest decision in my life to have been for nothing.

Its time to take a stand...time to be assertive...time to say 'no' when needed...it is time to remove all that is redundant in my life and all that that causes me sadness or confusion...to discover happiness I need to clear the heap of sadness I have dumped on top of happiness...dig through the mess and find that needle called 'Happiness'.

and keep working towards the directions iv set for myself....